jumpedofftheedgeoflife
jumpedofftheedgeoflife:

I’m sick of always crying
I’m sick of all these tears
I want to destroy the voices
I want to fight these fears

I feel strong one day
I will feel like a fighter
I begin to feel optimistic
My future begins to look brighter

But all it takes is a trigger
One tiny little spark
And I’m right back to where I started;
I’m left crying in the dark.

You told me you were there for me
That my disease didnt matter
But just like everyone else has done
You left me alone to shatter

I had never felt so low before
Like my body was falling to pieces
And you chose that moment to leave me
And suddenly the pain increases

I had thought of death everyday
I wished for it many a time
But at this moment it was it was certain
my is was on the line

I didnt know I could hurt this much
My heart feels physical pain
And though your thoughts of me are gone
To me you’ll always remain.

It’s not as easy as people think
I can’t forget the past
Because I went from happiness to disaster 
It all happened so fast

I pull myself up again.
I think it’ll be okay
Then when I see your uncaring face
And all of those feelings fade

You me hurt so deeply
It hurts sometimes to breathe
But no matter how much I want to hate you
I find it too hard to believe

You can tell me that I’m beautiful
Compliment me a thousand times
But insult me just once
And I’ll believe you like I’m blind

Why is it I’m so quick to believe
That it is always my fault
Even though I try to be strong
Im everything I revolt  

I’m ugly, fat and stupid
Pathetic, loser and naive
I hate the way I’m mislead
I’m so easy to deceive 

Your better of with out them
My friends will all say
But they’ll never understand
That they’re what got me all this way

I want to move on with my life;
I want to forget my heart break
I want to run away forever
Only a clean slate I will take

I can’t handle this anymore
I have physical, throbbing pain
If I stay here any longer
I legitimately go insane 

I don’t know why they keep hurting me
I don’t know why I’m so weak
This illness is too strong
It’s seems its at its peak

I wish I wasn’t living
I’m forced to be alive
But I’m not really living
Just trying to survive

I don’t feel like a person anymore
Depression is eating away at me
I’m crying over a million things
But you is all you see

I’m not proud, confident or brave
I’m not who I want to be
And for that I can’t face my demons
I’ll run away from them and me

I’m the villain and victim
I’m sick of being both
I’m tired of always fighting
And here’s where I make my oath

It’s obvious I’m not strong enough
To get past this horror tale
I’ll start fresh again
And this time I cannot fail

I won’t make the same mistakes
I promise to learn from them
Stay away from the same signs
And they won’t be a problem

Running away may seem weak
It may seem I can’t face the truth
But while I’m here I am suffering
I’m dying and wasting my youth



CLP

This poem. I wrote it. An original. Express my ugly pain through beautiful words. Caitlynne

jumpedofftheedgeoflife:

I’m sick of always crying
I’m sick of all these tears
I want to destroy the voices
I want to fight these fears

I feel strong one day
I will feel like a fighter
I begin to feel optimistic
My future begins to look brighter

But all it takes is a trigger
One tiny little spark
And I’m right back to where I started;
I’m left crying in the dark.

You told me you were there for me
That my disease didnt matter
But just like everyone else has done
You left me alone to shatter

I had never felt so low before
Like my body was falling to pieces
And you chose that moment to leave me
And suddenly the pain increases

I had thought of death everyday
I wished for it many a time
But at this moment it was it was certain
my is was on the line

I didnt know I could hurt this much
My heart feels physical pain
And though your thoughts of me are gone
To me you’ll always remain.

It’s not as easy as people think
I can’t forget the past
Because I went from happiness to disaster
It all happened so fast

I pull myself up again.
I think it’ll be okay
Then when I see your uncaring face
And all of those feelings fade

You me hurt so deeply
It hurts sometimes to breathe
But no matter how much I want to hate you
I find it too hard to believe

You can tell me that I’m beautiful
Compliment me a thousand times
But insult me just once
And I’ll believe you like I’m blind

Why is it I’m so quick to believe
That it is always my fault
Even though I try to be strong
Im everything I revolt

I’m ugly, fat and stupid
Pathetic, loser and naive
I hate the way I’m mislead
I’m so easy to deceive

Your better of with out them
My friends will all say
But they’ll never understand
That they’re what got me all this way

I want to move on with my life;
I want to forget my heart break
I want to run away forever
Only a clean slate I will take

I can’t handle this anymore
I have physical, throbbing pain
If I stay here any longer
I legitimately go insane

I don’t know why they keep hurting me
I don’t know why I’m so weak
This illness is too strong
It’s seems its at its peak

I wish I wasn’t living
I’m forced to be alive
But I’m not really living
Just trying to survive

I don’t feel like a person anymore
Depression is eating away at me
I’m crying over a million things
But you is all you see

I’m not proud, confident or brave
I’m not who I want to be
And for that I can’t face my demons
I’ll run away from them and me

I’m the villain and victim
I’m sick of being both
I’m tired of always fighting
And here’s where I make my oath

It’s obvious I’m not strong enough
To get past this horror tale
I’ll start fresh again
And this time I cannot fail

I won’t make the same mistakes
I promise to learn from them
Stay away from the same signs
And they won’t be a problem

Running away may seem weak
It may seem I can’t face the truth
But while I’m here I am suffering
I’m dying and wasting my youth

CLP

This poem. I wrote it. An original. Express my ugly pain through beautiful words.

Caitlynne